–>> FOOLISH – abandoned Turtle art from the Tokka-archives. Unclear why these were made, they may have been web-comic fodder from back in the day when i was doing an infrequent gag, usually one-panel comic format for the old, fairly defunct UNDERMANHATTAN site.
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Sorry for the delay in content the past week or 2, i was recently dealing with hospital issues and real life drama and it did set me a bit behind on the news, i shall amend that with this and upcoming posts. We’ll start with Movie related bits and the like.
TOYARK :: It ain’t no joke .. like it or not these 1/6 scale high-end movie figs are due soon.
–>> The preceding piece was done just out of pure kindness by Stan Sakai and for gratis. My favourite works of ALL from Stan are mostly his Yokai Monsters. Being a mysterious entity encountering Usagi and fowling up his travels, or a life & death – one on one battle with a deadly entity of ancient Japanese myth .. ..no one can recreate them in two dimensions quite like Stan. This is the second Kappa he’s ever made for me.
The piece was created last July at SDCC after me personally delivering my submissions for the Sakai Family auction EXTRA INTAKE – extra pieces were taken in after the initial round of auctions to raise additional funds, via **CAPS & ***C.A.F.
I do apologize but Tokka cannot guarantee, at this point – – the availability of the above pieces at this point ( they may have already gone to auction ) but will keep you posted if i am alerted on anything new in regards to the submissions.
Nick’s much anticipated Bebop & Rocksteady on card appear courtesy of Instagram user Trevino32 ..due this month ( .. first at Walmart stores, other outlets later ). It appears that Bebop has two variants for collectors to geek out while on the lookout; light and darker shades of brown paint on the punk-pig. Rocky’s weapons are a little humorous. There’s also a cute, up-close look at the Bax-Fly and Slash Half-shell Hero offerings. Keep your eyes peeled for the ugly muggs !! !!
*.. for the record, Jim McNaughton was the reporter on the scene of the incidents involving T.C.R.I. in TMNT v.1 #7 .. not necessarily a colleague of April’s. ;p
I have a whole bunch of ‘Hero’ Turtles stuff from the UK (some old and some new) to showcase in future entries. As for now, this is a simple announcement to say that (after ironing out WordPress kinks) I have returned to GGM!
–>> Got something stuck in that eye socket there, impeding my vision. YOWCH !!
And the Snapper bellows between belabored breaths .. .. Never the less, somethings have happened majorly good & bad have been shaking up things in the past month. This is not an imperative update, in fact it possibly may be more than anyone wants to digest – however it’s Tokka doing his best to explain the lack of activity on this site directly.
One apparently prominent gentleman of scholar who wrote a book or article or something was blathering on NPR the other day about ALL OF US living in ( paraphrasing hardcore here ) the most peaceful or at least most violent time in history. His academic rhetoric prolly backed up his points. The ludicrous position he seemed to take was lost on me anyhow as exhaustion post the most important time of the year for me; SDCC .. has been difficult for me to shake off. The anxiety has barely leveled off as i’ve had to devise a plan to play catch-up not only on this website but figure out how to pay off all the debts i incurred just to make this “WORKING VACATION” happen. Meh, this is an annual stresser. I’ve gone thru’ this over and over by now – it is old hat to a certain level. But the audacity of the Scholar’s rhetorical did irk me slightly — if everything is so peaceful WHY HASN’T IT EVER FELT LIKE IT ??
Maybe Tokka has stated it before, but a history of violence, fear, mental health and physical issues, hospitalizations, sexual abuse and even more traumatic instances had created a continuation of a lack of general safety in the existence i lead. Obviously, this has been and continues to be commonplace for peoples, children, and families all over the globe pre- and post- 9/11. Sadly i can only speak for myself; as i am aware that despite past and present challenges face – i acknowledge the plight of the countless in much more dangerous environments and complex situations. To some of these populaces it might as well be 9/11 everyday.
That lack of safety, general lack of structure, and some sense of balance was just not ever there. As i got older, it just continued. The adversity caused by the various abuses faced only added pressure to the already shaky ground. Minimal moral support or none what-so-ever and being told constantly on how i’d “NEVER MAKE IT” and “WAS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH” eventually lead me to thoroughly believing these things within’ my heart,
Pockets of resistance and love and support do need to be acknowledged. And as i grew into this “Monster” typing this diatribe — i had certain friends, family members and peers ( even within’ the TMNT Community ) that truly believed in me and still do. I don’t always call them out and thank them – -but i hope they know how much they mean to me and that just because i don’t instantaneously give that gratitude, it doesn’t mean that deep down it’s not there.
The Negative always wants to overpower you, even during times of success. SDCC remains the biggest North American Convention powerhouse. After 11 years – – in spite of the pressure involved it has been overall good for me. The experiences, networking , opportunities , growth and challenge along with very informally and somewhat affordably being able to resent my work to very big ( and small ) names in industry has been second to none. The convention gets harder on me every year however, as i continue to be the “BAT OUT OF HELL” with a very unique perspective on pop-culture and the arts — and still i struggle to find my place in all this.
The stifling of voices within’ this franchise ( as well as industry ) has also been a very hard thing for me to process. Not many seem talk about this issue, but i try. After last year ..i recognized finally that i really needed to start bending more in style and attitude to make my work more commercially viable. If i fail to do this by December 2014.. .. i’ve figured i would need to get into another line of work and drop Turtles altogether. I’ve not reached that decision yet. Good news is that things are changing slowly and hopefully in time i can reveal more.
As every year for the past decade +, the spring time has Tokka preparing himself for the big 4 day event.. and again as i was healing from my 5th Auto/ Pedestrian ( or whatever you call it ) strike.. the broken hand and ankle had barely just finally healed as i was wrestling to get work done for the portfolio. The first day at the end of June – off my cast and back on a bike, word came down hard .. like an asteroid hitting the landscape out of nowhere – – a childhood friend had passed away rather unexpectedly and tragically. This was a fellow TMNT fan as well. TMNT III and The NEXT MUTATION were highlights of this friendship ( among the the other diverse medias this franchise has graced us with ). This one small reason i am adamantly supportive of both that film and T.V. program, and actually a bit defensive of both “infamous” forms of Turtles media.
Things happen in life when they happen, unexpected as they may be.. and in spite of my friend’s passing, there was not really any time to mourn or reflect. “Hey, that’s business.. ” – – i had to keep working. What is one to do when an aire of professionalism is in order?? Predicament i’m sure many are familiar with. I don’t think i handled it all perfectly.
During the Q & A of the TMNT Documentary ; TURTLE POWER panel at San D – –
..i really started to break a bit. The pressure, 4 days sans sleep, emotional turmoil and heavy hallucinatory issues didn’t help anything. During the Q & A; paraphrased ..my question was ..
“Does it all really matter ?? “.
Cathartic and foolish i suppose on my part. The question may or may not have been answered i supposed. Was hard ti even concentrate in the answer as a few in the audience chuckled and laughed. Person behind me gave me a fair amount of hassle as i was trying to finish the question. The blows were softened by Kevuin Eastman on a personal level. Mark, Galen , Isaac, and Randall of the TMNT DOC expressed their passion and hard work as well as support. Encouraging me to see the film. This was appreciated and obliged.
Further on in what ended up being a 2 week trip, almost unprecedented for me when i go out to California – – enlightening and pretty inspirational trips to TMNT & Veteran and legendary Toy makers VARNER STUDIOS & FILM MAKER, prop and costume designers – BLOOD BROTHERS Studios. We also got to interact with the New Movie’s director and producers. If i am able, i will share a bit about those experiences at a later point. special thank yous to both studios for their unexpected but very welcome input and support.
H’mm ..maybe the real question n is WHAT HAPPENS NOW ?? Things cannot possibly go on the way they have if i am to survive in this existence let alone staying within’ the fandom and franchise. Yeah yeah, it’s all up to me .. always has been. But the standard to how things have gone so rampageous has got to abate just a bit even. I’ve learned some lessons and do have a bit of good news to reveal later as i am allotted too. Still figuring things out — shall try to hold out at least to the end of the year.
I apologies for the unintended BREAK from the site. That was not my goal – -it just happened as i was bowled over by the events of the past several weeks, and not entirely able to pick myself up right away. Not this time.
Trying to get back into the swing of things here, actually VERY HARD at work on that.I’ve stated this before that we are one of the hardest working and under-acknowledged TMNT sites out there. I hope this will change in the eyes of Nickelodeon and in the eyes of related companies as more heart and under-appreciated hard work goes into maintaining this whole thing than anyone can possibly imagine. Thanks for reading.. and again please bare with me. tokka is still processing so much and has so much work to do to “catch – up”.
Hopefully CATCHING-UP to GGM will be one of the more enjoyable outlets for the foreseeable future. Sorry for the very personal post, cathartic or not – -it’s the best i can do to let people know what’s been going on.
Stay tuned, and to all my supports a GENUINE and heartfelt THANK YOU.
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TOYARK :: It ain’t no joke .. like it or not these 1/6 scale high-end movie figs are due soon.
Comicbook.com :: in case you hadn’t heard; CASEY JONES Confirmed;Stephen Amell Cast As Casey Jones In Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 2
3Dprint.com::
..tonight on NICK !!
